Meeting

Today I had a meeting in a very familiar place I collaborate with. I was enchanted once again by what they are doing and how much I like it. During the conversation it was mentioned that there will be something -maybe- coming up in a local university and it would be a great opportunity for me. I have been asked: "you want an academic career, right?".

The answer was "yes!". My own answer made me think about it and how much it is important to put things in perspective in difficult moments.

This is not a sprint, it is a marathon. And if it is a marathon, then it is all mental.

Sometime I get into the crying over my own shoulder while the only intelligent things to do should be the following:

-stop feeling like a victim! EXPLANATION: Yes, I am overworked, yes I log in long days and long hours (my regular tenured colleagues are teaching 2/2, to give you an example, I do a minimum of 3/3, sometimes 4/4), but you know what: fuck them, it's all experience!

- start feeling like a scholar: I had impostor syndrome sinceI moved here. You know what? It is time to leave it behind and to move on. I can be insecure, maybe I can even feel like it is hard from day to day, but I have made my proofs, it's time to live up to it!

- start THINKING like a scholar: put research first. After all my work has always been appreciated until now, I have receive request for collaboration, etc. I can handle this.

- start ACTING like a scholar: protect MY research time.

- continue to work hard: it takes time but it is not done in 5 minutes!

This is what I was thinking about today.

My mantra:

Keep running...